In a world where perfection is prized, mediocrity does not jive, I long to just survive. I find myself in a bind. I long for a "sex in the city" lifestyle of writing a weekly column for major publications yet I live the "safe in the suburbs" work-a-day momwife life. Some of my writer friends have stopped living the rat race - they no longer punch a time clock. They own their own firms etc. I know it is not any easier than this 9-5 life I lead now but the independence is something I crave.